When Trust Was Broken: Facing a Serious Violation in a Complicated Relationship
I'll be honest, I'm an 18 year old girl, I have a 21 year old brother, and we happily have sex together for the sheer pleasure of it. It doesn't cause us any trauma or guilt, we know it's incest, but we don't give a damn. It started when I was 12, and I was the one who took the initiative by seducing my brother. As I said before, it doesn't create any problems for us, we're both consenting, we fuck happily whenever we want, but last month something rather unpleasant occurred, but something not very pleasant happened last month that caused some trouble in our relationship. It happened one day when we were home alone; I wasn't feeling very well: I had a slight headache and a bit of nausea. My brother came to me gently, asking what was wrong, I told him, and he started cuddling me. As time went on, I realized his cuddles were becoming intimate caresses; I understood he wanted more. I told him I just wasn't feeling it, that I wasn't in the mood for sex, but laughing cheerfully, he grabbed me, starting to say that nothing was better for a headache than getting lai. I tried to extricate myself, telling him to leave me alone, and he became much more pushy; at that point, he ripped open my blouse and pulled it off. At that point I began to feel afraid, I asked him again to stop, but he dragged me into our bedroom and threw me onto his bed. After locking the door, he was all over me again and succeeded in taking off my pants; due to my illnessl state, I was too weak to fight back, while he was telling me not to get agitated and to let him make me do it, saying that this was an experience too, and that sometimes women appreciate a bit of violence. I couldn't believe it. I didn't recognize my sweet big brother anymore, but a brute who was assaulting me. After taking off my bra and thong, he turned me over naked, face down; with one hand he held my right arm, while with the other he pushed my head onto the pillow from behind my neck. Then he opened my legs with his, and starts pushing his hard cock into my pussy with force; I couldn't rebel anymore, I was too weak, all my "leave me alone, you can't do it, I don't want to, you have no right to force me" had been in vain, so I gave in and let myself go to forced intercourse moaning languidly and weakly. My brother cums inside me without a condom, after which he collapsed exhausted next to me, hugging me almost tenderly. Since that day, I've become very distant and cold with him, and we haven't had sex in days, I was really pissed off and quite frustrated that my brother didn't respect my space and how I was feeling; besides, I felt like a mere cum-dumpster; just something to grab, bang, and unload in. Since then, my brother has tried to apologize over and over, saying he didn't know what got into him that day and that he would never do it again; sometimes he even started crying, I admit that now he seems really sorry, but I don't know what to do. I also miss our sweet days of secret incestuous sex; maybe I should really stop acting like this and forgive him.